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Mom was diagnosed with cancer on August 15, 2007 - the Feast of the Assumption of Mary our Heavenly Mother. I cried out to Mary that night and begged her to watch over me. I knew I had lost a human piece of my mom that day. I had to let go of my need for her to lift me up from my sufferings as she had done my whole life and I had to help lift her.

Where would my strength come from? It came in a simple "thank you". In my anxiety and fear, God asked me to thank him for this "gift" to our family. The words fumbled out of my mouth early that morning of her big test at UVA - "thank you Lord for the gift of my Mom's cancer". I was following Mom's lead the day she was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer as she said - "Lord I thank you for this cross and know you will bring good out of it".

In the thanksgiving, God gave me the strength to endure my hardest suffering - the loss of my best friend, my mom, my strength, my soul mate, my spiritual guide, my wisdom, my mentor, my coach and my forever inspiration.

The only thing that matters in the end is love - eternal love - the love that lasts forever and the love that will reunite all of us in heaven one day. This blog is my story of eternal love. My Mom is my inspiration as I write my thoughts, joys and sorrows and share with others the only thing that matters.



Sunday, January 18, 2009

Adoption Love - Thanks Birthmothers!

I am a mom of three beautiful girls...my children through adoption. My womb did not carry these souls but my heart surrounded them with love the minute I heard I would be their mom. God chose me for them and them for me. It is all quite amazing. I never thought I could love with this love. It is bigger and has no bounds. It is beyond the physical confines of a womb and the control of giving birth to your own biological child. To be a mom I had to trust that God had a plan for me and surrender my control. That was the hardest - no control - especially for someone filled with pride and known for her stubbornness. In that surrender - I was gifted freely with no greater love. Holding babies in my arms that were given to me by a stranger that now will forever be linked to my soul is such a blessing. So many others choose abortion and take the selfish road. It is easy and solves "the problem" or as Obama calls it the "punishment" quickly...but it stays as a thorn in your life forever. As the March for Life draws near on January 22, 2009 - I will remember the eternal love that touched my family with each birth and adoption. I will remember especially remember the courage of the birthparents to give life in a world that provides the"easy way out". My children can make a difference in the world and get a chance to live because another soul was not selfish. We are intertwined forever in eternal love. God is pleased....this is His plan - life for all that are conceived. We will march on Thursday to celebrate life and adoption and pray that more souls will be open to experience eternal love through the sacrifice and gift of adoption.

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